It seems that as life goes on we are taught one thing: to make good use of our time. This applies in work, school, or just everyday life. Whatever we choose to do will require us using our time. My mother has always stated that life is short, and she’s right. Because of this reason I have always felt the need to cram as many activities and hobbies as I can into my lifestyle. I want to live life to its fullest and have as many experiences as possible. My schedule is always packed! I run into town everyday for school, church, music, art, youth, friends, and much more. Since I’ve become so used to running around, I often feel that I need to be doing everything. I strive to be wonder woman, accomplishing all tasks whether big or small, spiritual or physical. I can handle anything and everything life throws at me.
The truth is that for a short time, I can do these things. But after a while I begin to slowly deteriorate into a depressed and disappointed mess. When this happens, I begin to create masks in order to fool everyone into thinking that I am fine. The reality is that I am holding in my problems in order to spare others from thinking less of me. In actuality, people look up to those who are true to themselves. How can you follow a leader who doesn’t lead with his/her true colors? No one can do everything on their own, thats why you have a diverse team of friends to help pick you up when you stumble. Maybe all you need is a word of encouragement, or a small loving gift to get you through the day.
The biggest gift and stress reliever is the fact that Christ can help you to walk in peace. Not just sit for a while and then be forced to get back up, but actually continue walking in perfect peace. There’s no backtracking or having to act fake, because the more you rely on Him, the lesser the load you have to carry. This doesn’t mean that your life is automatically perfect, it just means that you can work towards having a shield of peace wherever you go.
Recently I have been bombarded with attacks from the enemy, from medical issues to spiritual resistance. My leadership program has helped me straighten out the “holy clog” that I had developed, and with that came a new look to my wonder woman standard. Sometimes God needs you to take a break. I mean a true, cancel all plans break. Love can flow through you and into others, but how can you keep giving if you haven’t taken time to be filled yourself? I feel like this is especially important to people like me who are so used to doing something that they cannot just do nothing. God loves to create something out of nothing, the story of creation shows us that. So what do you think would happen to if you decided to let God speak when you were taking the time to rest?
Because of all this, I have decided to cancel an upcoming missions trip to NYC. I’m not encouraging everyone to cancel something big, just to ask God what you can give up in order to gain more. I know personally that I need to receive more than give right now, and that’s okay. I believe God needs me to stay behind so that I can get back on track with His perfect peace. He wants me to be still, and wait for His word. Because I can’t do everything, but in my weakness God is there.
Psalm 46:10 – “Be still, and know that I am God”